Just when you think you have it all together, great job, kids are all grown and their own, life can throw a curve ball. I just lost my job (first time) due to restructuring, they eliminated the role. Then my husband decides to stop drinking and goes into alcohol withdrawals. I was out in left field on that one, I did not know he was drinking that much. It started heavily after his youngest son commited suicide at the age of 23. .
But even with all that now and with all the drama. I now look back and see how God worked. He put me in a place that was heavily influenced by Christianity. I was on the fence for many years about the existance of God. I always felt that we were all connected some how - that there was "something" bigger, stronger than us mere humans. These wonderful people I met were just what I needed. My husband as well. The strength of faith pulls us through the rough spots. It pulled me from my pity-party (after a day or so). It added strength to my husband in his quitting the drinking.
Let me give you a little more of my background. It's ironic really. I spent many years reading self betterment books. Much the same as many, I thought money was the answer, so I focused my energy on money. It took some time but just a month ago, I earned three figures. Even with that, I was still just floating through life wondering when the happiness was going to start. I am very creative and love natural, holistic health practices. Yet I did none of those because I was waiting for that happiness to start as I had money. I grew more depressed. Drank wine, no exercise, no painting, just more eating, more drinking, more and more fatter and more and more depressed. Each day I would say to myself, tomorrow I will change things. I grew to dislike my job even though I loved my co-workers. I grew depressed to go to work.
At the library, I gravitated to books and CD's talking about God and amazing personal life stories. I started listening to motivating CD's on the way to work - and the ones that struck the hardest were the ones about believing in yourself and that God lives inside of each and everyone of us. I would start crying on the way to work listening to the encouragement of the CD's. Still I kept saying change will come tomorrow - feeling locked into making the three figure income. My husband is in construction so income from his work was minimal.
They say everything happens for a reason - not too much longer I was jobless. God took matters into His own hands, forcing change. Thankfully my health/pay benefits were paid through the end of the month as my husband was thrown his curve ball at the same time. Initially I was devastated but now here we are, on the 27th of March, me and my husband have never felt better, upbeat and completely postive. I am painting, running, and loosing a lot of weight. My mind set has been totally changed. I can collect unemployment so I am and will take my time finding a job. I had a interview yesterday and I am cautiously optimistic. It is not three figure but so what. We have had to dramatically cut back on what was our lifestyle, but we are going to make it. I thank God for it - and I have faith that He has plans for both me and my husband. My main focus is balance, money is not the answer. Balance is.
